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Saturday, November 21, 2009
just ME @ 9:49 PM
I don't really know how to start this post. My last post was on the last day of October and it's been almost a month. Funny how i rarely ever come here anymore. It used to be a place, an outlet of expression for me. By the way, this post is gonna be wordy. I've been thinking. A lot. About life, death... love. Last Sunday, i was at home and doing my usual thing when i was informed by Hooi Ling through msn that my Dean of Studies, Ms. Veronica Ho had passed away peacefully from cancer. Frankly, my first reaction was to think that someone was playing a joke on me. It was too sudden, too unexpected. But i checked, and it was true indeed. Now, i've never ever got the chance to speak to Ms. Veronica personally and the only contact i ever had with her was when we would pass each other in the hallways of TOA. She always seem vibrant and full of life to me. Even in pictures, her energy seems to jumped out at you. I felt oddly disconnected from reality after receiving that piece of news. Then dinner came and i had dinner with one of mom's friends who was still grieving over the death of her colleague whom also passed away from cancer. And hearing her speak of her colleague last days was too much to handle. I felt heavy-hearted and slightly depressed. I do not know why it affected me so but then again, i've recently found myself getting overwhelmed by these emotions. Thursday was the day of Ms. Veronica's funeral. A few of us went and Zi Hao was appointed as the student speaker. I thought i wouldn't cry but i did eventually. It was hard to keep it in especially after viewing the note she left behind and seeing her appear so different than that image we had of her. Life gives and life takes what it wants and when it wants. I feel tired. I'm tired of keeping secrets. I'm tired of death even though i know death is imminent for everyone. I'm tired of shallow, narcissistic people who take everything they have for granted. I just feel like screaming out in frustration. And the worst thing is i have no one to talk to about these issues. I just want someone to listen. Not neccessasrily agree with me but just to talk to and understand where i'm coming from. I don't know lar... sigh. How does anyone handle all of these? 0 CRAPPED back quickie
Saturday, October 31, 2009
just ME @ 11:44 PM
An update is needed! Congrats to those who won awards for Kancil and at Beijing!!!! You guys are awesome and i'm so proud of y'all!!! Let's hope we can do the same for DG. =DDD That aside, I've got so much to talk about. But erm, not much time to type it out as usual. Though what i can say is we finally finished 3 weeks of fund raising yesterday!!! Overall, i think it was highly successful as we've achieved more than RM10k plus in funds. 8D We are made of awesome-ness. Then again, how not to right? Almost all the items for sale were sponsored. Lol. I can't wait til we start on our group projects! Plus i'm keeping my fingers crossed for something else. I hope it works out. Even if it doesnt, i don't think i have any regrets. =) Tata! 0 CRAPPED back flowers on the ground, they wilt away
Monday, October 19, 2009
just ME @ 2:18 AM
This post turns up to be so unlike the one that i originally started out writing. Not to mention that it's actually 7.26am as i type this and not a couple of hours ago. Because now, i'm in my dad's office. Because he has to go for an early morning meeting in Putrajaya. Because i need him to fetch me to college later. Because i have an meeting for Graduation Campaign. Does it all make sense to you? It makes sense to me. You know how you say something and you totally get it, BUT everyone else around you just stare blankly at you? Because what you ended up saying sounds totally different from what you intended in your mind. I need to stop starting sentences with because. I'm actually bothering to type something right now because (there it goes again, that word because) i was using Google Chrome and they had this themes thing going on, similar to Mozilla Firefox. And i happened to notice that they had a particular one named Infected Mushrooms. Hell yeah. Whoever came up with that name? But then again, it wasn't so much the name than the thumbnail of that particular theme. It had little men. Like dwarfs... and no hint at all of anything mushroomy. Which makes it so weird. Unless maybe there ARE mushrooms, and you just had to apply the theme to see the whole picture. STILL, dwarfs... So, i just had to type it out here. I'm weird like that. By the way, the obligatory sick post. Yeap. Me sick again. Been filling up a dustbin full of mucus covered tissues. I dislike being sick. Though listening to Zee Avi's Monte early in the morning makes me feel better now. I like Monte. Now, i'm hungry. Hurry up 8am. I'm waiting to go down to the office canteen to get me my breakfast. Listen to Monte people. It soothes your heart. It soothed mine. 0 CRAPPED back tick tock, time is running out
Saturday, October 10, 2009
just ME @ 6:59 AM
The thing about having friends halfway around the world is that you will never run out of people to talk to when you're staying up to finish your assignments. Sorta... Because it will be their day when it is your night. Although Wei Liang just ditched me for sleep. =( It's 12 midnight in Bristol now, 7 am here in dear ol' Malaysia. I have KFC's class in exactly 2 and half hours time. Why oh why do i continuously subject myself to this kind of sleepless torture? I need to rewind my body clock. It is getting pretty darn messed up. Love, she-who-procrastinates 2 CRAPPED back happy birthday papa
Monday, October 05, 2009
just ME @ 10:33 PM
HAPPY 55th BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! An hour and a half more and it'll be over soon!!! =DDDD You're the best dad ever, I love you paaaa! Thanks for fixing my laptop's internet yesterday and all the money spent on me over the years. =DDDD 0 CRAPPED back so he sings his tune
Thursday, October 01, 2009
just ME @ 2:48 AM
Oh to think that Joel of all person would be the one to inspire me to type some stuff here after such long while. Lol. I just finished listening to him sing Taylor Swift's Love Story. OMG I WANA LAUGH SO BAD. Not because his singing was horrible but because the whole incident was so random. Imagine a junior from your high school whom you've not talked to in I think, 3 years... suddenly messaging you on MSN at 2.30 am to listen to him sing. Lol. But he is a nice kid. Aduhai, calling him kid pula. He's probably only a year or two younger than me. And his singing was just rough, needed more fine-tuning. He sounded really hurried and breathless. Still, a good attempt. =D Good luck to him for the audition tomorrow though! By the way, referring to the previous post, KFC did come late and sorta complied with my inane wishes. Maybe telepathy does work after all! Haha. With that, I'm off to sleep now. Nights people... 0 CRAPPED back early morning letter of plea
Saturday, September 12, 2009
just ME @ 2:03 AM
Dear Mr. KFC, I do not as of now, know you yet. Nor do i know how you look like either for that matter. All i have is a mental image of Colonel Sanders promoting his line of crispy fried chickens. Though i highly doubt that you would be sporting a white coat, glasses and beard. It must seem impetuous of me to do so, considering that we are both total strangers to each other. But i would like to request a favour of you during your class later, which according to my time, will start in about 7 hours. OH please please please PLEASE go easy on us during our first lesson! I will not have enough sleep and thus would not have sufficient energy or stamina to keep awake during your lecture. It is likely that i would only be able to digest about 30% of what you will be teaching later. Even then, i think that's a pretty high percentage already. Plus, most of us are still in a holiday-ish mood. Hence, i will now convey to you these thoughts of mind through telepathy since it seems unlikely that you will be able to read this post in time. Hopefully, wish upon a falling star, fingers crossed and all that, you will get my message while you sleep peacefully in your nice, warm bed. Yours sincerely, Lyn ps* this whole post is a result of slight sleep deprivation and some mental illness in its early form. pss* i will update you too if it actually works! 0 CRAPPED back encouragement
Friday, August 21, 2009
just ME @ 3:23 AM
You know, or maybe you feel at least, that someone really loves you, and is giving you encouragement through subtle hints and is asking you to hold on for a while longer when WMP continuously plays the best songs on your play list, songs that you need to listen to when you have to stay up and finish your assignments. It makes you feel a little less lonely... Or maybe you just feel what you feel because you need to. ![]() 0 CRAPPED back falalalala ~ feeling joyous
just ME @ 3:05 AM
I am feeling a bit ecstatic right now. You wana know why? BECAUSE I BLOODY FINISH DRAWING THE ENTIRE STORYBOARD FOR FINAL PROJECT DVELOPMENT!!! <333 Yes, i totally needed to say that in caps. Omg release tension. 30 pages, 175 panels, ALL DONE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I don't wanna touch storyboarding for a long, long, long, superrrr loonnngg time! ^________^ Now marching on to light and mood study! Hooray! Colours! And i only get one last chance to say it but i am 18 still! One more day. Whoopie, will probably be cranky and pooped on the day itself. But whatever... I am so waiting to hang out with Nikki Tan, Ee Lin, Zhu Lian and Jan Yi. Whhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Plus listening to Smashing Pumpkins now. More <3333 =D 0 CRAPPED back quick note
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
just ME @ 10:46 PM
I'm feeling how I did last time. Praying hard for my dad, for Naj, for my group's presentation on Sat and for everyone else too. *** Patience will be wearing thin for the next 3 days, you have been warned. 0 CRAPPED back |
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